Whats wrong with my life?

Question

...****, thats what i think about when i think about my life...im not very insightful, this is just **** that comes to mind, but, yesterday i found an internal flaw in people i only just realized, theyre all selfish greedy assholes who dont care whatsoever about anyones emotions but theyreselves. Anyway, noone understands me because i mask my character and personality by making myself look like a "try to be funny smartarse" when actually im in a mental state so deep that im on the verge of committing suicide...a couple of days ago i was thinking to myself, why the **** would Kurt Cobain commit suicide? he had everything, what an idiot but now i see we both share the same opinions, we both hate humans in general, im not some emo guy with nothing better than to share my emotions with the world, truth be told, im a 15 yr old kid who goes to school and plays sport and enjoys video games, its just now, i think wtfs the point in living with people, i feel noone understands the concept of life and that only i do, my deep love for music has driven me to feel this way and im in a hole so deep, if only ANY of you knew how the **** i felt, you would all despise me and get me mental help, but i ask you, from what u have gathered, wats wrong with me? =[

Answer 1

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The first apparent issue is you are only 15. Most 15 year olds are learning and experiencing new versions of life and living, of growing older and living in a very judgmental and critical society. You are who you are. You just have to accept to discard the negative, accept the positive and move on each day as it comes. Kurt Cobain killed himself because he was "bored" and tired of performing live concerts. He thought his life had reached an end because he didn't enjoy doing concerts. Is that a reason to blow your head off? He should have taken a break. He was certainly wealthy enough to go somewhere like Tahiti, write a few songs, and take his mind off of his work. He could have come back energized. You should do the same thing. Keep a journal and write down your thoughts and feelings each day. Who knows? If you do choose music as a career you may have some songs handy. As far as being a "normal" kid, it seems as if you are. You don't need mental help. You're just looking for something or someone to grasp on to. Cobain was an idiot because he solved his problem when it was only a temporary situation under his own control. Suicide is not an answer that is very rational. It is also unnecessary, and selfish. As for others, just be yourself. You can't change people just like they can't change you. That's all you can be expected to do. Hang out with friends who share your love of music. Write songs, or try to, from your feelings. In school, join a club or take music composition courses. Who knows? Some day you may be famous.

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Asker's Comment:

definitely helped me change the perspective and the way i looked at my life, god i must sound like some desperate emotional douche, ahwell ha ty.

Answer 2

i wanna hear the **** you feel, and think.......spill it haha no pun (get it like blow your brains out...)

Answer 3

What kind of music do you listen to? You need to increase the positive influences in your life and minimize the negative. Don't look to other people for gratification, look within yourself. Don't expect too much from other people, only from yourself. Be able to accept other people including their limitations and not feel angry and betrayed by them by accepting that they ARE limited.

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personal experience

Answer 4

Do you want the truth, or do you just want me to make you feel better about yourself?

First and foremost, I'd say it's your attitude and point of view. Fix that and everything else is downhill from there.